So maybe I haven't been the best candidate for 'happy-go-lucky-ness' lately.
[ like the picture above, on New Year's Eve, where all we could
think about was being happy-go-lucky for the rest of the year! ]
I have been stressed about work. and life in general.
but excited too.
And well, Morgan has midterms this week and although I'm not in school anymore
it stresses me out to see him stressed out
[ love does weird things to you sometimes. ]
But last night as I took a run after work I looked at the sky
ya know the moment between the light blue and the dark grey after a long, rainy day
(I didn't mean for that to rhyme, promise)
well it made me happy.
and that made me think of so many other things that have made me happy in the past week,
and I thought 'I should write them down'
so I can remember, on the days that I am stressed or burnt out or 'down in the dumps'
that there are glimpses, even long, extended moments of happiness that occur.
Things that I've Liked (lately...)- That sky I was talking about. I was tired from work, I needed to fold my laundry, I needed to anything but be out there running. And then I looked at that clear, greyish blue sky and my mind got that much clearer.
- Calls from Morgface when he is between classes. I know its cliche, but I can't explain the giddy, butterfly feeling I get when I look on my caller ID on my work phone and I see his number. It immediately brings a smile to my face. and then the greeting of various nonexistent people ("Hi, this is Dominoes with your anchovie order" or "Hi, this is your doctor calling, you have a minor problem") brings laughter. And then the recollection of crazy stories from our days so far not only make me laugh, but they make me even more grateful he is in my life.
- Rachael's voicemail. So my best friend, Rachael, is notorious for breaking/losing/forgetting her cell phone, or just not answering it for various other reasons. This time though, she went to California and somehow, someway lost it. (I don't know the real reasoning yet - it's still lost) but I have called her a few times in the past few days to check the phone status, and since the phone has obviously died since being lost, it goes straight to voicemail. I guess I shouldn't like hearing her voicemail, I mean I would love to hear her real voice instead, but hearing that "Hi this is Rachael, call me back whenever you can" message as soon as I press talk just cracks me up. [BTW, I know you'll read this - love you Rach]
- Talking to my parents. I've always been away from either set of my parents throughout my life - or all of them I guess when I was in college - so this whole living away from them thing isn't anything new, but keeping in touch with them has, for some reason, proved to be harder. I notice the times I do get the chance to sit and chat with them are very special to me. I got to do that last night.
- Making things for other people. Since Morg is on his "I'm a bodybuilder diet" all the sweets I make, I now bring to the office. I love the people that I work with, though don't tell them that - they would make fun of me for it ;-) - and being able to show them that in any form makes me feel just a little bit more gracious towards them.
